The Affair of the ESTRANGED FATHER and the CSA

I am not entirely sure as to reasons for my blog. I suspect some of them relate to a kind of therapy. To facilitate the expulsion of frustration and grief that festers inside me.

Other reasons are deeply rooted within a wrap of altruism and forgiveness. To receive forgiveness from those two wonderful young people for whom I have the honour of having my name registered at their births, and from those wonderful folks who have helped me, those who have shown me kindness and support.

I grant you that if you are still awake it already sounds like a blog to miss. But please rest a while and allow me to get over the introduction and thanks. I assure that I will miss nothing and include all whilst attempting to 'blame, name and shame'. The latter, given the subject matter is illegal in that I am unable to use either the real names of my children or the names of the parties associated with the unfolding diariesed history that I intend to tell.

Should I have your attention and the merest level of interest then please let me know. Every morsel may be an encouragement to continue and gently evolve this blog.

So what is it all about then? Well, that's more than I can confirm at this stage. It was always my intention, some ten years ago, to write about my experiences, thoughts and ramblings as a result of this terminal affair between myself, 'my ex' and the CSA.

It is of course a docu-thriller based upon a messy triangle of relationships. It will clearly include the facts from my polarised view along with the 'meat & gravy' of a life which has largely been wasted upon excesses. Excesses of everything, yes everything.

My anticipation is that many people will have great empathy with me as it all enfolds. There will be those who will be absolute about their view of my blog. Those who can see the bigger picture and some who only want the titillation. You are all welcome....... I would be grateful for the death threats to be saved from the deletion file upon my remote email site. Please accept the concept of a fantastic and just piece of legislation, the right of free speech. I will honour yours.

Well, have I sensationalised this so far? I guess the answer is 'a little'. What I hope I can achieve in the future is to write it as it is and allow the words the opportunity to sensationalise the blog.

Forgive my grammar and rambling its all part of the story.

Enjoy my blog.

I look forward to hearing from you.

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